It so typical to tell yourself (and nowadays, the world) that "this year, i'm going to lose weight" and other, typical resolutions that people keep telling themselves. I think one reason that a lot of people don't follow through with their resolutions is because they think of it as promises, and as history has shown, promises are meant to be broken. Of course, not all promises are broken, and that is very good if you follow through with your words. Regardless, promises are something that I cannot follow through. They are dangerous. People die for making promises (Seriously, look at WWII..Germany and the USSR...big notarized promise broken). Its better to just do it.....and do it within your means. You can still go above and beyond the norm when you're just executing whatever you're doing, but honestly, I think its a lot better than worrying about a promise you made to someone or yourself. Its justs the way I see it.
I have a couple things that I want to do. Right now, i'm sitting at 180LBs...I am planning a cross regiment of tradition exercise and several sessions of Insanity. I'm not going to set a certain weight, but I am going to set myself up so I am running at least 8 miles a week. Its realistic for me because of my school time and studying time (and i'll get to that in a sec). I'll also go back to tabata intervals and traditional weight lifting, but I have to take it easy too. As the year moves on, we'll see about turning it up a bit.
In addition to executing my new workout plan, I am going to spend more time with school, studying, and school life. I was lucky to have coast by with a 4.0. I don't think I can coast like that next year even though it'll be pretty much the same. I will also be more active with the people. I'm tired of telling myself that my only friends are in the BI, the mainland, or Japan. I need a new set, and i'm a little more confident about life from last year. Unfortunately, one person was capable of not only destroying my idea of love, but my idea of how I conduct myself with friends; especially of the female type. I always have the impression that they think that my friendship to them are just advances on them for a relationship..or some shit like that. I think I repeated this several times last year. I didn't think that the way I conducted myself among friends have not changed since even when I was in a relationship with that "her." That is the extent of how my outlook has changed over this year. I don't have much confidence in making new friends...but I have enough to try, so I will do just that.
Speaking of friends... You know, I try my best to stay in contact with you, and some of you do the same...or at least respond. I thank you for that. It is much appreciated, and its a great quality to have. To those who I have attempted to show care, or even just to say hello, and got no response, IT STOPS NOW. I am not, and I repeat: I AM NOT going to waste my time trying to make a convo with you. I already did this to one person, and I am sure as hell not afraid to do it to others. If you feel that you're in this category, you can talk to me about it. I didn't say that I wasn't going to respond to you, but if you ask anything like "how are you?" or "what I been up to" and the like, expect to not hear anything of that sort. I will not tell you anything of that sort. You will not know because I don't think you deserve to know, and if you think that i'm being harsh, well, look back at all the times when I tried to start a convo, or fb chat/comment (whatever it may be) and got nothing. Put that in your equation.
In contrast, I cannot be a hypocrite of that, so for the ones I myself haven't spoken to in a bit, don't worry. I am going to get to you. I always have a concern for others. Its my nature and I don't see any other way to living MY life. I will speak to you more often this year.
That's pretty much it for now.
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